Book of Job

I just want to relate to Job.
During my season of persecution 2 years ago, the Book of Job comforted me as a new and young believer.
But now, after 2 years, after falling more in love with the word of God, after becoming a little more mature... I am reading Book of Job again.
This time round, Book of Job is much harder to understand.
There are so many things to read between the lines, to understand what was Job thinking and going through, why did God allow Job, a righteous man, to suffer. Why did God rebuke Job's 3 friends??!?!

And then relate it to myself... why did God allow what happened to me during my season of persecution as a young and newly converted believer?
Nothing can happen without God's divine intervention.
When Satan wanted to persecute Job. He had to still ask God for permisision.
Similiarly, everything in my life - persecution or not, is done through God letting them happen.
Why does He do that? These are our tests. These are things finite human beings CANNOT comprehend.

God was so confident that Job would still praise Him, still worship Him despite all the attacks and misfortunes.
Was God also confident in me that I would not just reject the new faith I just accepted?
I still remember my leader said that he felt that for me, he encourages me to continue to go for services and cgs. But others, he might not do so...
And during those days, not going to services and cgs were not an option. I really wanted to go. I did cry if I could not due to certain reasons.

Come to think of it. It was indeed miraculous that I did not backslide, that I did not condem God, that I even rejected my dad's views on God when I was only a 2 months? believer!

The victory that came out of it? It was not dad allowing me to go services and cgs after many months, neither was it I have proven anything. But rather, the sweetness of the victory was and STILL IS.. SATAN IS DEFEATED and SHAMED!
Woah! So much joy! Haha...

God allowed things to happen for HIS reasons. FOR HIS THOUGHTS ARE HIGHER!
I really cant imagine how I got through it and I really have no idea I continued to seek God.
Those were the days I seek the Lord and the bible as though they are the only friend and companion I had.
No family members to support. Relatives would mock if they knew. My parents were just telling me to forsake Christ.
No friends. Most of my friends are unbeliever and it was really hard to open up to them and for them to understand.
Or rather, I was so determined that I was sticking on to the faith that I refused to hear anyone who tells me otherwise. (A little like Job here)
And the friends I had were just very new friends I met from church... I was not entirely comfortable with opening up with them. And the sole close friend I had, were in not-so-good terms with - as in we had our own issues to settle.. that was also another tough season I had to get through...

It was so much seeking God.
I really have to thank Him for speaking to me, for strength, for His presence, for His word...
I also want to thank Him for having that confidence in me that He knew I would overcome.

My history? All of it.. I am using and will use it for the glory of God.
One of these days, I will preach and teach to thousands! =)
On the pulpit, I will share my testimony to shame to devil, to bring great glory to God.
My life is the greatest testimony to praise and glorify God!

HALLELUJAH!